Thursday, March 19, 2009

Altar of Ego

Today I was listening to an old CD by Carolyn Arends. On it is a song I'd forgotten about, but so readily identify with. Though I seldom publish lyrics here, I want to put the ones on it that I find especially relevant today, after a long time journaling and pouring out my helplessness to the Holy One.

Verse 2:

I've got four friends I will let advise me
Me, myself and I and the evil twin inside me
We talk each up and we bring each other down
'Cause there's nothing we like more than the ever present sound
of the voice inside my head, once again it's led
To losing all the things that matter

Chorus

I don't want to be here again
Bowed at the altar of ego
I've sacrificed most everything
Here at the altar of ego

I need a touch of love, I need a thrust of grace
A push, a shove, a slap in the face
"Cause I have gazed too long at the person inthe mirror
As I turn away, I'm finding things clearer
I will set my sights on Someone so much higher
Nto on what I want, but on what I require
To travel to the place where at last I can embrace
All the things that really matter.

2 comments:

Laurie Lynn said...

Oh! Carolyn Arrends! I know this song! My daughter has the once mine cd this song is from!
I just hate that "altar of ego" and I seem to spend too much time right there until God so graciously provides that "slap in the face" as only He so graciously can, even when He uses His servants, my brothers or sisters in Christ! Yeah, it hurts, but in a good way. Helplessness is a good thing. May we say with Paul,
"And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness. Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ's sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Cor. 12:9,10

This is good news sister! Love and prayers! Laurie

terri said...

I dislike my ego, but it sure seems to rule much of the time. Thank you for reminding me of my weakness and the need to turn it all over to our heavenly father.